Who I am…

Memphis roadtrip 2

I am messy. And way too easy going about important things in life. When it comes to work I am incredibly devoted and can go above and beyond expectation. But in many other areas of life I can be messy. I can put things off until they can’t be put off any longer. I can forget from moment to moment to do things. I can come home from a long day of work and choose to neglect laundry or dishes or dinner. I can take the easy road when it comes to those sorts of things. My car is always a mess. Sort of like my thoughts. I can  get lost in them. I can spend hours just thinking about life…

And I sort of like it there. Lost in my own head.

I am not perfect. I am not even close. I wasn’t born to be the perfect wife and mother. And I have spent a lot of years apologizing for that. I have spent a lot of years trying to be someone other than me.

And I am exhausted.

Published by lamandabeesleyconrad

#Writer of Literary Fiction. Writing Prof @ The University of Oklahoma. Mom & wife. Art, music, theatre enthusiast. HUMANIST.

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